I am such shit. Loosing everything I love and have. My beloved ones. I thought I was a rich man. Such a beautiful wife and such a brilliant son. A son I can really be proud of. Liam, stay that way. Be nice to your mom, she loves you very much. She deserves all the best. I can’t offer her what she wants. I am a real piece of shit… Dreaming of better future. Such an idiot. I’m broken inside , something cracked and I don’t know how to fix it. I’m going mad, slowly but constantly. I am about to loose everything I have left. Who buries those, who don’t have anyone? Who lights a candle in their memory? Without your interaction I am becoming empty… Empty shell with dying feelings. The rational part doesn’t help at all.
I want to make you happy. So if it would be better for you to be alone, I’ll leave you alone. I won’t be around to see you happiness. But I promise I’ll always be watching for you from the sky. You, Liam and your beloved ones. I love you all, no matter what, nobody can take this away from me. Ever.
My dreams are worthless. No perspective, no bright points… Too many bad memories are ruining our beautiful family. I am not worthy of you. I wish you all the best. Hope you will blossom.